Thursday, 20 June 2013

WAITING seems to be the word this year...

We are still waiting to hear from the local SW to set a date for our home visit. It's nerve wracking!!! I contacted our SW ,but has not received a reply as of yet. This is getting to me. The panel meeting is next Friday,28 June & we realy,realy want to be apart of that group. Just to get finality on whether or not it's a yes or no! I dont know how I'm gonna cope having to wait another month or what.

A friend of ours who's been married for 5 years,just recently divordced started dating again last year & hid girlfriend is expecting,in her 6th month now. He was very weary of telling me,but I am in a very good state of mind and could be truly happy for them . He told me early on,when she was 9 weeks along. I had made peace with our sotuation.  Having a baby is not something that's on my mind at all anymore. My dreams consists of forms,screenings,courts and receiving a healthy baby to love as my own. Weird,this was not the case 2 years ago. How time changes things.

Just yesterday me and above mentioned friend were swapping pix of baby stuff we had bought. The difference just,their goods are of reality,mine of hope. I know a little body will fill these clothes someday soon and he/she will be all ours!!! What a lovely vision...

Till next time...

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